Pity Party, Squelched!

There is nothing like a pity party being squelched. Usually we write all about the wonderful things that are going on in our life and conveniently leave out the struggles to appear...perfect! Well today I'll be a bit more vulnerable. Yesterday was one of those days where everything seemed to be going against me and I had some not-so-pretty moments. In the middle of it all I knew I needed to snap out of it and think about the things that still needed to be done for the people in my family: washing and cooking. I did them but with a "poor me" heart, not a "pretty" heart. After dinner we were sitting down and watching Home Makeover, a Sunday night ritual. During the commercial breaks we have the kids go do one of their evening chores and check them off. So during the 1st commercial was "go get your pajamas on", they did it promptly. I was in the kitchen doing my chore of cleaning up dinner and all of a sudden I heard a "thunk" on the coffee table in the front room. Steve was sitting on the couch and had his legs extended. Allie comes running back to the front room with her pajamas on and trips over Steve's feet and slams her head right into the coffee table. Of course, I came running and she started sobbing in Steve's arms. Steve immediately says we're gonna need stitches on this one. So I grabbed the butterfly tape and Steve tried his best to mend. Then off we went, Allie, myself and Tori (to help Allie while I drove) to the ER. As we headed there a song came on the radio "Empty Me" on our Christian radio station, which was played just for me. The Chorus goes like this: "Empty Me of this selfishness inside, every vain ambition and the poison of my pride.....Empty me of me so I can be filled with You". So at that moment God was beginning to empty me as I recognized what was happening. I needed to turn my attention from myself to my little girl and then I began to feel a relief of the weight of selfishness. I know I'll still have my selfish moments but hopefully they will be less frequent with the help of the Holy Spirit. Allie, well they checked her out and the cut was in a good spot so they didn't need to do stitches, they just glued it. Praise the Lord. Allie had been to the ER about 6 weeks ago and had 2 stitches put in the side of her foot, you would have thought she was being tortured. So I was not looking forward to going through that again. A little glue did the trick this time and we were headed home.